Chan Kitthan…A dance tribute to Jeremy

The last photograph Jeremy ever took was that of the moon. Every time I look at the moon I think of him – and feel as if he is looking after me as the moon’s light and rays fall over me. So, I choreographed this dance in tribute to him for the 18th of May 2019 – what would have More →

Grieving a Pet – A Tribute to Tabasco

My darling cat Tabasco would have been 16 today. He died 6 months ago. He hadn’t been too well for a few days and had started having fits. When the vet saw him he said that without further tests they couldn’t diagnose what was wrong. I didn’t want to put him through any invasive tests or any harrowing treatment, and More →

Being Mother – Jeremy Lucas Education Fund

Educating youth, empowering communities, encouraging conservation “When people ask me if Jeremy and I had children together – I say no. But the reality is that we now have 16!” The Jeremy Lucas Education Fund (JLEF) is now in its third year and is going from strength to strength. JLEF currently supports 16 young people in secondary and tertiary education More →

Interview on Living Raw Radio

“In an open, honest and very candid radio interview, I talk about my depression, bereavement, family estrangement and all the life events that have shaped me over the years.” Shalini Bhalla-Lucas

Interviewed by award-winning businesswoman and radio presenter Geeta Sidhu-Robb for her radio programme on Living Raw Radio. More →

Life’s Changing Seasons

When we look back on a year it is usually the extreme lows and highs that we remember. We seem to forget the small things. This isn’t surprising given how much the big events and occurrences affect us. 2018 has been punctuated by loss after loss and it feels likes there has been no respite since the day Jeremy died More →

Chapter 22 – Walking in the Dark (Excerpt 14)

A paragraph from Chapter 22 It was an article in the Guardian that started me thinking about the idea of legacy. The article, ‘Top Five Regrets of the Dying’, was based on a book written by a palliative nurse, Bronnie Ware. She had spent years caring for people in their final hours and they had shared their thoughts with her More →