After Jeremy died I didn’t look at myself in a mirror for a whole year. I couldn’t bear to see the sadness in my own face, to see the dead look in my dull eyes and to see the grief that was consuming my whole body. And, getting in front of a camera was almost unthinkable for me! Jeremy loved More →
In the moment that my husband Jeremy took his last breath, my identity changed from being his wife to being his widow… On 28 July 2016 my beautiful, kind husband Jeremy died from a rare form of renal cancer. It was the most devastating thing to have happened to me in my life. During the first two years of grieving More →
The last photograph Jeremy ever took was that of the moon. Every time I look at the moon I think of him – and feel as if he is looking after me as the moon’s light and rays fall over me. So, I choreographed this dance in tribute to him for the 18th of May 2019 – what would have More →
We grieve when we experience loss which comes in many forms. The loss of a loved one. The loss of a pet. The loss of a job. The loss of good health. Grieving fully takes courage. Grieving allows us to let go. Grieving allows us to come to terms with what we have lost. How we grieve is personal to More →
My darling cat Tabasco would have been 16 today. He died 6 months ago. He hadn’t been too well for a few days and had started having fits. When the vet saw him he said that without further tests they couldn’t diagnose what was wrong. I didn’t want to put him through any invasive tests or any harrowing treatment, and More →
Educating youth, empowering communities, encouraging conservation “When people ask me if Jeremy and I had children together – I say no. But the reality is that we now have 16!” The Jeremy Lucas Education Fund (JLEF) is now in its third year and is going from strength to strength. JLEF currently supports 16 young people in secondary and tertiary education More →
On Friday last week I got an email from the media office at WAY – Widowed and Young asking me if I would be ok to be interviewed by journalist Natasha Hinde at the HuffPost for an article she was writing “How To Find Love After Loss – And Overcome Those Feelings Of Guilt”. I readily agreed, because one of More →
A conversation on the Deep State Consciousness podcast hosted by Richard Cox. We discussed how I began to engage with my grief following Jeremy’s death and the crucial role mediumship played in doing so. The podcast can also be heard on the DSC page or on iTunes